First of all, I want to apologize for how little I’ve been active lately. On MSN especially, I’ve been a real lazy bastard on there >.< I get up to get a sandwhich or take a shower or some other thing and totally forget what I was doing...
I'm feeling a bit disoriented from reality, as if my brain lost a software driver and can't put 2 + 2 together. I've got so many things I want to do but I seem to end up doing barely anything productive at all. Is my brain just trying to unwind from university work, or is it something else? It can't take this long to unwind, surely. Maybe I've just lost track of what it was that really made things worthwhile online.
Maybe it's those precious forum RPs that have so far gathered virtual dust for years or so. Or perhaps I yern to draw something, like a comic or other story. Maybe I've been slowly starving myself from exploring the worlds of fantasy that lie behind things like roleplay or art. Kree and all my other characters almost seem to cry out for something deeper. Especially Kree... I've used him too much as an avatar and almost forgotten the character underneath.
Writing, drawing, coding... I feel so torn between each of them. I want to get back to the good old days when I used to write at least a page a week for RP-related stuff. But drawing is so attractive, but so far I’m not so great for detail, which makes serious or in-depth art harder than basic comic-esque art. And coding… god… I know I can code like crazy, but I severely lack organization and direction to get more than just a small start on things.